Tuesday, November 30, 2010

fcking wish!

I wish I saved all the tears I cried for you so I could fucking drown you in them.

Monday, November 29, 2010

this is what i need.





a room!yesss!sebuah bilik yang besar secukup rasa.dipenuhi cermin di sekeliling.speaker merata-rata.so that aku boleh melompat.menari.mengguling.warrrrrghhhhhhhhhh!!!!!what a real dancer am i ayte?!ppffffttt.bohong!

im not gonna give a fcuk!

I'm not gonna give a fuck anymore... If you hurt me, I'm gonna hurt you. That's how it's gonna be from now on...

Heart Breaker

This is for the broken hearted. I know how you feel. Empty, betrayed, and no happiness whatsoever. You don't want to laugh, because you know it's not going to help, but you don't want to cry, because it will just make you feel worse. You feel like your heart is falling apart, but not only that, but you know soon your life is going to feel like it's falling apart too.

You don't think it will ever end, and no matter what this person has done to you, it feels impossible to stop loving them. And everyone wonders why if they have hurt you so much, then why do you still love them. That's the confusing part, you don't know why, you just do, and the people who hurt you the most, and normally the ones you love the most. And then, after a few weeks, you finally feel a sense of relief, like you're getting happy again, but you know inside that you're just going into denial.

And after a few more weeks, you're back to where you were an empty soul and teary eyes. You thought you got over them, but really, you just stopped showing it. And you can't help but to show it again. It leaves deep scars on your heart that are there forever. And no one understands how you feel, and how deep you are hurt, no matter who they are, because it hasn't happened to them And even if it has, every broken heart is different. They don't know the true pain you feel and carry each and everyday now, so you learn that basically you are alone with all this.

And the feeling starts to overwhelm you, and suddenly you just break down, right there, because you know you've had enough, the tears just instantly start flowing, and you're to the point where you don't care who see's. Because you've spent so many nights lying awake in bed, and so many days being haunted by the scars and fear of rejection. And in the midst of all these tears, you know that its not helping any, and it's not going to bring them back, if you ever even had them in the first place. After about a million tears have been cried, you finally pull yourself back together and keep going. Your throat starts to clench and your eyes burn with the tears you are trying to hold back. Everyone says, "It will be okay…” But you know it won't.

And that’s the truth, it won’t. And you look back on all of the hurt you had from this, and you realize that people are horrible. You're still hurt, but you've learned to hide it so that everyone thinks you are okay. So now every time you see this person, you know you still love them, and you feel a slight tingle in your heart yearning for them to love you, screaming out, but for some reason they don't hear it. And then you sit back and wonder how one person could have caused all of this...

Saturday, November 27, 2010

urgh!

I have never been perfect. But neither have you!






*crdt:nabil saharuddin@http://ideclaregoddess.blogspot.com.

Thursday, November 18, 2010

its twenty-five.

fiu...fiu..fiu....ouch!blog berhabuk.bersampah.baru nk update.thanks to yuyu lar lah.beliau meng-tagged kan aku dengan bende alah ini n dats y lah aku meng-update.

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25 things bout GeeArif...

  • Nurul Najehah Binti Mohd Arif
  • Gee-Nurul-Angah
  • 03/04/1990
  • Terengganu
  • berat 40kg x berubah.
  • tinggi 158cm x meninggi.
  • sorang kakak,sorang adik laki,sorang adik pempuan.
  • currently as MLT's student.PTPL college.tenkiu KKM;)
  • Tabika Kemas Padang Setar,Sek.Keb Padang Setar,MRSM Mersing,MRSM Kuala Berang,Kolej Matrikulasi Johor.
  • addicted ngn ayam goreng..ggrr!
  • pembenci sayur tegar
  • meluat ngn susu,cheese n seangkatan dengannya
  • tak reti makan seafood.menyusahkan!
  • sangat nyampah dengan perempuan ayu-gediks style yang dibuat-buat
  • super-duper nyampah jugak with guys yg flirting 'round.
  • ouh sgt addict juga with dancing!
  • is trying so hard to be good with all kinda music instrument.guitar n etc.sangap!
  • sangat ramai bestfriends!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
  • giler shopping!!!!!
  • addict juga with fashion!tapi bukan mangsa fesyen.haha!
  • seriously x boleh duduk diam!within 15 minutes je bertahan.teeerrrrttt~~
  • easygoing,outspoken.kasar.cant be help;)
  • big spender!!!!!!!!
  • bad driver!agagaga...n yeah i can drive manual ok!
  • lastly.aku comels!hahahaha
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perlu ke tag ppl?takmo lah!ha3

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

SI PENERIMA JELINGAN MAUT.

entry pada hari ini agak mencarut.gua akui.!treeeett!!oleh kerana gua menggunakan istilah "gua".feel free je nk carut-caruthaha!

bermula hari rabu gua kali nie dengan bunyi salam di luar umah.bukan pak cik berkopiah yg tanya umah ketua kg kat gua mcm hari tuh.bukan juga akak cun jual notebook berharga rm2000.sebaliknya jiran umah gua datang kendong adik beliau yg berumur 2 tahun.gua diberi tugas mendidik adik beliau gara-gara beliau yang gatal meroyan keluar mahu membeli belah katanya.gua chill je.jage budak pedehal.gua angkut anak didikan gua,gua bawak masuk dapur.beliau nie senang je nk diuruskan.gua kasi biskut oreo sekeping pastuh beliau buat hal sendrik.gua lena sambung tidur.itu pd kebiasaannya.tapi masalah berlaku hari ini dimana gua enak2 kasi biskut kasi makan,beliau sedap-sedap campak biskut fvaret gua itu.shit!rugi sekeping.gua chill!tapi tak lame.bilamana beliau hentak-hentak kaki mula menangis.arrrghh..kacau tido gua.gua bangun basuh muka cincai-cincai,gosok gigi siap.rambut gua lap-lap kasi nampak basah.gua tukar baju sesaat.sentap kunci motor.

gua angkut anak didikan gua bersiar-siar di pagi hari!pusing sana pusing sini gua mengayuh motor tanpa arah tujuan.akhirnya gua buat decision,gua kayuh motor menuju ke air terjun.gua bukan nk mandi ok!musim hujan nie badan gua allergik semacam kalau sentuh air.gua mahu kasi anak didikan gua tenang tengok ikan berlumba-lumba dalam kolam.itu tujuan gua sambil-sambil gua buleh cuci mata tgok psgn bercinta buat hal dpn mata gua.

gua sampai je gua terus menuju ke kolam ikan.gua kasi lepas anak didikan gua jalan bebas.manakala gua pulak usha makhluk2 yg berkepala manusia.nahhh!!!gua da spot sepasang makhluk.gua buat-buat main air tepi kolam.gua intai sipi-sipi.celaka!si awek buleh plak terperasankan gua yang cun kt blkg diorang.terus si awek bisik-bisik dgn si balak yang tangan tak gheti duk diam tuh.keje nk merayap jea.!si balak pusing belakang.gua buat muka kambing.hehe!gua senyum.

biaselah.lelaki mmg pantang tgok pmpuan cun mcm gua..tanpa berpikir pnjg si balak terus angkt tgn.,konon2 kasi "hye" same gua lah.gua yg mmg giler tahap gaban nie angkat balik tgn!nak kasi "hye' balik la kononnye.nahh amik kau.gua suspek buleh kalah muncung itik ar muncung si awek.gulp!gua terus pusing belakang.jelingan maut si awek kasi pada gua, gua balas dgn senyuman sinis yg x kurang hebat.chess!!

ape lu ingat gua berminat dgn jantan lu ke?setakat dating bawah pokok rambutan bawak moto kapcai gua tak heran lah!gua sentap tgn anak didikan gua yg sdg mencelup dalam kolam.

"jom dik,balik.mommy nak balik masak tuk daddy plak"!-kasi sound hebat punye.

nahh..hamik kau..sejak bile gua berlaki siap ade anak pon gua tak tahu.bantai!

gua terus start motor kasi berderummmmmm!blah!

p/s:niat tak elok.padan muke gua!haha